Thursday, July 28, 2011

Initiation & Descent

from the Heroine's Journey by Maureen Murdock (p.87-94)

they say you lurk here still, perhaps

in the depths of the earth or on

some sacred mountain, they say

you walk (still) among men, writing signs

in the air, in the sand, warning warning weaving

the crooked shape of our deliverance, anxious

not hasty. Careful. You step among cups, step out of

crystal, heal with the holy glow of your

dark eyes, they say you unveil

a green face in the jungle, wear blue

in the snows, attend on

births, dance on our dead, croon, fuck, embrace

our weariness, you lurk here still, mutter

in caves, warn, warn and weave

warp of our hope, link hands against

the evil in the stars, o rain

poison upon us, acid which eats clean

wake us like children from a nightmare, give the slip

to the devourers whom I cannot name

the metal men who walk

on all our substance, crushing flesh

to swamp


                       Diane Di Prima, “Prayer to the Mothers”



Women’s Initiation


The descent is characterized as a journey to the underworld, the dark night of the soul, the belly of the whale, the meeting of the dark goddess, or simply as depression. It is usually precipitated by a life-changing loss. … ….


Sunday, July 17, 2011

Go

Mistakes I’ve made could cost me the most

Things I’ve said to see could blind me instead



I thought the worst mistake I could make

was all the destruction I could unleash

But maybe instead it was all that I said

when I was looking for faith and begging for love

Lost in the night, so close to what’s bright

finding things along the way that didn’t come

together till the last thought



And maybe he was listening better than I thought



It’s so hard to be sure when everyone I know

is playing a game to get to the top

of a place filled with shame and blame

You

Its so easy to get distracted and fall back asleep



How did you become everything?

What was everything before you?



It’s just so hard to see past myself

when I want to be with you so much

I can’t think about them when my

heart’s been broken open wide

to suffer from all life’s wind



I really don’t care about them in the end

right now and forever all I want is to be

close to you



You’ve created a monster

I don’t even deserve to be

but I don’t care. All I care about is you

All I want is you

All I ache for is you

All I need is you

YOU, YOU, YOU!!!!!!



What have you done to me!

I don’t even like myself anymore

But it really doesn’t matter now

cause all I can feel is the hole you left behind



It’s always here…it’s never far

Distractions and illusions amid mass confusions

Steering the way, directing my day

lend me a laugh, or a wise thing to say

scattered treasures to help overcome obstacles

Along the way

But all along

The hole inside

Is always near

A second away

Lying right behind

The thin mask of day

Saturday, July 16, 2011

The Truth


Looking ahead

never falling back in time

We’ve lost our connection to the Truth

Not the truth of man or science or logic

Not the truth of facts & statistics & theories

But the Truth, the real truth to it all



Don’t even respect your very own soul

It’s no wonder life lost all its wonder



We live to prove

We’re better than most



Bitterness and betrayals

Swallow our souls



We’ll give it all up

To spend more at the mall



Just do what’s right

What you know in your heart

If we all did this

Life would restart

Life's Wind


Yes, I found something
I can’t name it
I can’t define it
I can only feel it
And be uplifted by it
I can see through it, through its eyes
But I can’t see it
I can’t hold it or take it
To claim it as my own
I can only join it
And give my soul back to its flow

Hazy Life

What should I do

with my time here on earth

A person with the potential

to shed a little light



Should I seek some star

not knowing if I’ll go too far

Should I strive my whole life

when it’s impossible to see

With clarity, with surety

with absolute security



The answer seems clear cause

I’ll only fail if I never try

If I work my whole life

to open the world to its true self

And I leave this world untouched by my souls’ flame

Then at least regret and shame

won’t fill me with blame

Divine Art

The words come out so perfect

In so many famous songs

It must be proof of the force

To which we all belong



I want to create some magic

I want to be given a sign

I want to enter the mystery

I want to feel the divine